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Dec. 21st, 2009


[info]melonxz

FREEZE. MY. LOVE.

 "I keep thinking, at which point did I simply become
a spectator of your life?
At which point did you not, need me anymore?"



???

I will freeze my love. Take it, alive....
when you want it. It's alive and
it's waiting for you.


I need you, I need you, I need you.

Dec. 19th, 2009


[info]nicky_bitchy

A Must Read! British Lions rugby legend Gareth Thomas: 'It's ended my marriage and nearly driven me

Gareth Thomas is a sporting legend. He captained Wales in 2005 to their first Grand Slam victory since 1978. The same year he captained the British Lions tour of New Zealand.
With 100 caps to his name - more than any other player in Welsh history - he has one of the fiercest reputations on the field, and a row of missing front teeth to prove it.
At 6ft 3in and 16st of pure muscle, his masculinity has always been an absolute given.
As a young man he bonded with rugby mates in the pub over tales of sexual conquests, and flirted with pretty girls eager to bag a sporting hero.


Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1237035/British-Lions-rugby-legend-Gareth-Thomas-Its-ended-marriage-nearly-driven-suicide-Now-time-tell-world-truth--Im-gay.html#ixzz0a9xwIYN3

Dec. 18th, 2009


[info]melonxz

You say party we say die

   
  
     

Zirca. Lady's Night. International friends. Other bimbotic moments or disasters. Although I especially love, The Day After. It's much sweeter, Sleeping all day with my bestestestest friend in the whole wide world.

Call some Macdonalds? And any other slobbish behaviour is accepted. As long as we stay put on the bed. Why are you sneezing shall I turn off the air-con? Oh no, the remote is too far. 30-whole-centimetres of out my reach. Fucking slobs.

Still these days are golden. I wouldn't mind more days like this.

Dec. 16th, 2009


[info]nicky_bitchy

Something to relax you


[info]nicky_bitchy

December 2009: Christopher Hitchens on Religion in the Military Politics & Power: vanityfair.com

December 2009: Christopher Hitchens on Religion in the Military Politics & Power: vanityfair.com

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This is soooooo fucked up

[info]gong2

KOC

KINGS OF CONVENIENCE
SINGAPORE
19MARCH 2010
andrew bird
muse
kings of convenience

i am very pleased with 2010.

[info]gong2

Empty pistol.

I feel dead.

My heart isn't here and so is my mind.
I can't give a 100% in all I do.
I complain, I whine, I am angry, I am hurt.
I am human.
Cold and dissatisfied.

Sometimes, it's not good to be too busy.
Sometimes all we need is a good rest.

Till then, it's time to study for marcom.

Dec. 15th, 2009


[info]melonxz

"Colours That Make The Rainbows Bend"



Colour pencils. The first from millions to come :)

For the plenty lot of girls who don't see how beautiful they are.
Ah, this has such a noble cause/backstory to it. (For once)

[info]gong2

pretty relevant random stuff.

If I were to leave this place and run away for the sake of saving my own sanity and freedom, will that make me a coward?

I don't see myself here. I don't think I will die, but I will not be happy, I will not be satisfied.
I can't help but feel that this is not for me. This will not work for me.


In the plane this morning, I looked out the window and saw the clouds.
They were huge but graceful at the same time.
I looked down. Everything was so small. so tiny. we are so small.
I looked up, I saw more clouds.
I wonder what heaven would look like.
we are so small. so insignificant. yet our lives play a huge role in another's at one point of time.
It's amazing how God works. Sometimes we just gotta let go and surrender.
I don't believe in accidents, I don't believe in coincidence.
I don't believe there's no pain, no sadness, no hurt.
I do believe everything happens for a reason.

We just gotta be patient.

-
But why do I still feel so empty inside?
Why do I still find a void that can't be filled?

[info]melonxz

I Don't Think I'll Be Back This Time

2010 Resolution: Be loved. I don't want to be unwanted anymore. I want to want you. and more importantly, I want you to want to want me.

Dec. 14th, 2009


[info]gong2

greetings!!!!

hello my dear mortals!!! greetings from bangkok. it's the last night now can't wait to be home actually. i really really miss all my friends ):
you see those faces every single day it feels weird not seeing them for a few days. can't wait for starbucks morning and all the random crap we laugh at. i spent 5 days eating and eating and eating and shopping and eating i look like a da long bao now!

can't wait to be back.
i have presents!!!
byebye <3
see you soon.

[info]melonxz

Bowl of Unmentionables




And I promise, to regard you,
just the way you are,
love you just like a stranger.





So what's your secret?

Dec. 12th, 2009


[info]melonxz

The Most Dreaded: Sex Talk

"In sexactly 2 years you will sexclaim, "PUBERTY. FREEDOM. PROMISCUOUS GIRL YOUR TEASSSSING MEEE. or even, MY LIBIDO."

I'm not sexaggerating. This may cause you to become a sexhilarating sexhibitionist,
even if its not so sexpidient, it is sexpected. Listen to me, I am the sexpert, Remember
always though, that it is a sexpression of love that matters.

Ah, love... I cannot sexplain these sexplicit things to you, my child. You have to sexperiment...
people, positions, although I will still sexert whatever authority I have over your sexotic
sexercises. What? You want me to stop talking now? You're not even a least bit sexcited? I'm telling
you, as your sexperience sexpands, you must sexpel all notions that love does not sexist and only
a lust that will sexhaust you and never sexpire.

Go on now and sexplore this brand new world. Although be sure you don't sexploit your body
until your most precious appendix sexplodes.

Love,
Your Sexcellent Parents."

[info]melonxz

Not before long

something will tear us apart. I'm happy
with you truly, but it doesn't really matter.
I think I don't care (the best motto in life)
as you've shown me. Not to fight fate
Not to be too concerned
over the undercurrents in our love.
Most of all, not to do anything
if it means it would take so much out of me.

Sorry I've got nothing. Nothing to save us
Nothing in my usual sneaky box of plans Nothing.
Not before long

[info]melonxz

The Afternoons

I was smoking alone in the afternnon somewhere really crowded and then
I lost sight of Impending Doom. It's okay, because now I see the Light
at the end of it (Polytechnic), and not just the bloody end.

Anyway I haven't been out in the afternoon for the longest time. I almost wrote
it off as inconsequential, some useless, unbearable time between the day being
too hot and the nights being too long.
Today it was different.

Perhaps all too often I forget to mention how happy and grateful I am throughout
the best and worst of times. Throughout aging, moving on and forwards. I like
the way this year turned out. It may have been a horrible reckless haze verging
borderline nightmare, in my memory,
but now when I look around (at everyone) I see things (everyone) is
just as it should be.

I love my Boyfriend, and my Bestfriend. And all my other (2 Cherynn and Debsy)
precious friends. I should really channel all this feelings somewhere where its
normal in this world to be this full of love. Switzerland. Sweden or Canada?
Barneyville?

-



Dec. 10th, 2009


[info]nicky_bitchy

Can we Agree to Disagree? The Extinction of Gay Republicans

By Nicholas Deroose

I like to think that I have a better chance of riding a unicorn than meeting a gay Republican. Because in today’s world of political polarization, there is no middle ground, if you are gay then you’re a Democrat and if you are not pitching for the blue team certain social exile awaits. In his book, The Big Sort, Bill Bishop explains how and why America has become a country of political extremes. Bishop explains that the phenomenon of “assortative migration”, whereby people move to neighborhoods of similar political leanings, breeds homogenous thinking. This concept of ‘group think’ suppresses different viewpoint and is similar to the concept of the ‘tyranny of the majority’ that De Tocqueville wrote about. If the predictions of De Tocqueville in the 1800s are coming true what does this mean for the future of American democracy?

When selecting a place to live we want to be as comfortable as possible. We want to live in a neighborhood that provides us the luxuries that we desire. Whether it is escape from the chaos of the city or easy access to public transportation we have a certain list that we go through before settling down. The politics of the neighborhood, how Republican or Democratic, have also become a consideration for people’s choice of settlement. But this was not always the case. “In 1976, Okanogan County in Washington had split fifty-fifty race between Jimmy Carter and Gerald Ford.” “In 2000, 68 percent of Okanogan County voted for George W.Bush.”(Bishop 20). People used to live in politically mixed neighborhood but this is not the case now.

What people don’t realize is that the best prisons are the ones that are most comfortable. This sort of geo-political segregation breeds group thinking. During groupthink, members avoid expressing views that are outside the comfort of the consensus. By moving themselves into these politically homogenous neighborhoods, people feel comfortable in their similar views but however box themselves into a surrounding of homogenous thinking. The dangerous of groupthink is that it discourages discussion and creative thinking. “the most profound insight of the men who framed the Constitution “was to see heterogeneity as a creative force which would enable people not to hate each other but to think more productively what might be done to solve problems.” (Bishop 72) How can we expect to debate and come up with the best solution when our views are all the same?

De Tocqueville wrote that Americans rather be equal in slavery than to compromise on their notions of ‘equality’. “There is, in fact, a manly and lawful passion for equality which excites men to wish all to be powerful and honored. This passion tends to elevate the humble to the rank of the great; but there exists also in the human heart a depraved taste for equality, which impels the weak to attempt to lower the powerful to their own level, and reduces men to prefer equality in slavery to inequality with freedom.” (De Tocqueville 53) This lack of comprise and groupthink also leads to extremism. Known as the “risky shift phenomenon’, the phenomenon shows that over time groups become more extreme in the direction of the average opinion of individual group members. “Like-minded groups create a kind of self-propelled, self-reinforcing loop. Group members send signals bolstering existing beliefs as they all vie to stand out as the most Republican or most Democratic in the group. And that sets off a new round of unspoken competition.” (Bishop 69) When people are in like-minded groups they feel safe enough to take their views in the extreme end of the average. “Mixed company moderates; like minded company polarizes.” (Bishop 68)

It is this polarization that forces certain demographics out of politics. Gay Republicans are on the verge of extinction because the majority of the gay community is so left-leaning and by being anything other than Democratic is a sure way to be excluded from the next holiday party. Sure, the majority of Republicans don’t support gay rights but that is not all that they stand for. We have picked out a few controversial issues such as gay rights and abortion to represent entire parties. By focusing on being one issue parties, people blanket over the stances of the party over other issues such as taxation and education.

One example of why it is important that we have gay people on both ends of the political spectrum is the current debate over the US military’s policy on gays in the military. The current policy of “Don’t ask, don’t tell” excludes openly gay people from serving in the military on the grounds that it affects ‘team cohesion’. This policy has no scientific evidence to back it up and is based on fear and ignorance. However, gay people who support the repeal of the law are also forgetting that by doing so they are supporting a pro-war stance. Their intentions of LGBT equality are good but do not take into account the entire voice of the LGBT community. There are people in the gay community that do not want gay people to serve in the military because they are anti-war altogether. They do not see allowing gays to serve in the military in line with the overall progressive stance of the LGBT community because war uses a large amount to the country’s resources to wage war against others. The LGBT community has been so focused on the repeal of discriminatory laws that they have completely excluded voices from the other end of their own community. The example exhibits tension between two agendas of the LGBT community, equality and social justice, whereby on one hand the community argues that gays should be allowed to serve in the military if they chose to do so and the other is campaigning for a boarder view against war entirely. This is not unusual in a debate but however the difference is that one voice is overwhelmingly louder than the other and has dominated the debate over the issue within the same party. De Tocqueville explains how the collective interest and opinions can dominate the entire conversation without leaving room for debate. “In democratic States organized on the principle of American republics, this is more especially the case, where the authority of the majority is so absolute and so irresistible that a man must give up his rights as a citizen, and almost abjure his quality as a human being, if he intends to stray from the track which is lays down.” (De Tocqueville 271) James Madison similarly also agreed that it was important to guard against the omnipotence of the majority. “It is of great importance in a republic to guard against not only the oppression of its rulers, but to guard one part of the society against the injustice of the other part.” (De Tocqueville 304). This is what De Tocqueville referred to as the tyranny of the majority. Debate over LGBT issues have been reduced to shouting matches where only the loudest are heard.

Another danger tyranny of the majority brings is that the Democratic Party has now taken the gay vote for granted. Because the LGBT community has been so consistent with their voting patterns, Democrats know they will not vote Republican because why would they? The Republicans are the ‘enemies’ of the gay community. This has allowed the Democratic to hold on to the gay vote without coming through with their promises to the community. After electing the president of hope President Obama, many people in the gay community looked to him to come through with some of the promises that he made during his campaign, such as the repeal of the Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA), Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell and amendments to national AIDS/HIV policies. While outwardly the president appears to be supportive of the gay cause, by attending dinners and making speeches, actually concrete action has not been taken and this has left many gay voters disillusioned. The recent vote to allow same-sex marriages in the state of New York actually showed some Democrats voting against the bill! The fear now is that if the Democratic Party does not provide the change that is needed who will? Gay voters have essentially trapped themselves within one party and elections have become nothing more than a song and dance routine with false promises and no actual result. Gay people in America are still second-class citizen in their own country because despite having made gains in visibility, the acceptance of gay people is based on the acceptance by straight America rather than civil equality. (Vaid 6)

So what does this mean for the future of democracy in America? One prediction could be that gay people would be so frustrated with the Democratic Party that they would stop voting altogether, this would leave a huge gap in the voting population for the Republicans to sway over. However, they would have to balance its new stance with the already ultra conservative voices in their party. Another prediction could be that if the majority continues to dominate the discussion then America would cease to be a democracy where you would only have one party in power and trying to get a foot into the door would be near impossible, very much like how it is in Singapore whereby the country is only democratic in name because the same party has been in power for the last 40 years. The only reason why the country has not erupted in riots is because protesting is illegal.

America is becoming a country divided in politics and when the middle ground collapses, so will democracy.













Works Cited:
Bishop, Bill, and Robert Cushing. The big sort. Houghton Mifflin Harcourt, 2008. Print.

Tocqueville, Alexis, and Henry Reeve. Democracy in America. Bantam Classics, 2000. Print.

Vaid, Urvashi. Virtual equality. Anchor, 1996. Print.

[info]gong2

BYEBYE!

I'm leaving on a jet plane, don't know when I'll be back again.

The Doulos ship is here in Singapore! They cannot sail out anymore ): But they'll be opening the ship to public again! When I heard this I was so stoked!!! Means Madi's still here, I hope. KONGBOB!!! We can go get our bibles from there now :D

Thank you my dear friends for being so patient with me and helping me with school work and taking care of everything.
Words are cheap, I hope I'll be as good a friend as you guys have been to me.
If you want anything from BKK just text me okay? I'll try my best to get it for you.

I'll be leaving ard 3am. It's a short trip but I'm going to miss my friends. Those faces I see every day, those jokes and lingos.
I never expected myself to become so emotionally attached to you guys. I'll learn to treasure you, forgive me if I don't do it well.
Meh, so emo haha

DingDong is finally out from army! Seems like forever! Haven't even played L4D yet an I'm leaving. meh.

Good bye kids! Be well!


-
Yesterday was awesome.
Best surprise? Seeing Marion in the flesh next to me at dinner.
Jasmine finally succeeded in SOMETHING.
The whole night was blissful. Carol, Bel, Bea, Jas, MEIREN!!!!!
I feel so blessed (:

[info]melonxz

A problem-free, philosophy.

I'm one drawing and one spread away from sweet, raw, freedom. Can you smell it?

Debsy, Cherynn, Louishia tomorrow. And on Saturday,
I'll be working for this event at Zoukout with my sister in our pikinis.
A LIVE WHALE ON THE SHORES OF SENTOSA IN SINGAPORE. How exciting

A problem-free, philosopy, I'm happy. Happier still-to put on 3 movies later tonight, some music,
and club around the room alone on a Thursday night.
Hm.

Dec. 9th, 2009


[info]melonxz

No one cares, (my friends)

You can take my cigarettes, my allowan$e, my freedom, my bag, my drawer, my house keys,
YOUR trust. Take everything. I'll find some other (worst) way to self-destruct in due time.

Some things just can't, will not be taken away.
You see this thing about people (besides the few outstanding qualities like pathetic, fragile, insignificant, helpless, redundant, etc) is that they don't change. Or none of whom have I ever witnessed.
They just get better at lying. And we just close an eye in a wink-fashion, except not in the happy way.
Just like how I'm going to get fucked right now, and not in the happy way as well ok shut up just fuck it.

[info]melonxz

lie n lie n lie n lie n lie n lie n lie n lie



I made my bed I'll lie in it
I made my bed I'll die in it
I made my bed I'll cry in it
I made my bed I'll die in it
I made my bed.


Good Girl.
Don't blink, don't you dare
watch me,









d i e.
HA-HA.

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